Maruah Melayu

baru lepas kemas rumah, bestnya dah mandi. tapi tadi jatuhlah pulak masa bersihkan habuk kat kipas siling. sakitlah a bit, its ok la kot, should be better later. macam nangka busuk laaa..

now, watching AC DiSini. bravo to Wan Nor Azlin yang mana satu ketika dulu menimbulkan kontroversi hebat dalam industri hiburan Malaysia, tapi kini dia tampil sebagai seorang wanita yang sangat tabah dan kuat semangatnya. insyaAllah, segala kesabaran dan kebaikan itu akan ada balasannya. melihat Wan, terasa betapa bernilainya harga diri seorang perempuan melayu yang beragama islam. tidak kira apa jua kesilapan yang pernah kita lakukan, jalan untuk sebuah kesedaran pasti sentiasa ada. kita sentiasa muda untuk melakukan dosa, tapi kita tak pernah untuk bertaubat.

terasa nak menulis tentang satu isu, mengapa perlu kita sebagai gadis melayu meletakkan maruah sebegitu rendah dimata warga asing. perlukah kita menjadi seorang yang taksub untuk berkawan dengan warga asing? salahkah mencari lelaki melayu sebagai pasangan hidup? memang tak salah untuk berpasangan dengan warga asing, kalau dah itu jodoh yang ditentukan Allah, teruskan.. tapi mengapa perlu menolak takdir, hidup membenci lelaki melayu dan mencari cinta dari lelaki warga asing. paling sedih, sanggup menyerahkan bukan hanya cinta tapi tubuh badan.

dont make yourself cheap, ladies.. sedih sebenarnya, hanya kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga. i was so upset when one swedish guy talked to me that malay lady is cheap and maybe me or anyone else just the same lady as *****. OMG!there were arguing session between me and that guy, i was so mad. but Alhamdulillah, he understand. and actually he gave credit because i have my own style and strong.. i just speak up my right. and actually, he is ok and wont force anybody, if u dont like it just say it. something that u could resist, exactly. but why should u gave everything to him. Sh*t! i hate this.that is their culture and they are really ok with that, we are malay and why dont u just put malay pride is strong. u hate malay guy, looking for 'outside people' to be partnerlife of yours but do u realize that this is the risk that u should face when u wanna be with them. they just like to have it as fun, and they are very ok with contemporary relation. come on... why should u hate malay? what is wrong with malay? is 'kind of malay people like u' is very good until u hate others. myself is having so many 'outside' friend but i dont have to give them my body. they are respect me as lady, THANK GOD. its on us actually, put respect on ourself. respect yourself. hey look here, u are just pure malay girl, not even mix chinese or indian. look at yourself before demanding. i hate people pretend with the scarf or baju kurung or baju tutup2 but then i knew the true color. Ya Allah, berikanlah hidayah dan petunjuk pada insan ini. sesungguhnya hati ini terlalu sedih. we such drifting apart. inikah insan yang selama ini kuanggap lebih dari seorang kawan, seolah seperti keluarga sendiri. Nauzubillah. Semoga dia sentiasa berada dibawah lindunganNya, Amin..

HATIKU YANG AMAT2 TERLUKA KETIKA INI. YA ALLAH, BERIKANLAH AKU KEKUATAN UNTUK HADAPI SEMUA INI. AKU TIDAK MAHU KEHILANGANNYA, TAPI SIKAPNYA MEMBUATKAN KU JAUH HATI. KAU PERMUDAHKANLAH IA YA ALLAH.

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yesterday was hectic and tiring..

Core meeting in the morning @ DiGi and then rushed to Alamanda due to the roadtax and insurance of my hubby is ready to be collected.

actually this is about Wednesday, i bought pasta for my hubby @ Ericsson Cafe downstairs, pasta with tomato and mushrooms gravy.. yummmmyyyy... when i was about to pay @ the counter, suddenly they rang the bell. OMG, what happen? and everybody were clapping their hand. they reached 100 customers and im that figure, ahaks ;) customer yang ke 100 no need to pay, free delicious pasta.

rezeki kan, kalau tak entah berapa lah kena bayar.

on Wed also, ive got T-shirt for DiGi MSS Project-Cirrus. today most of the team wearing regards T-shirt. nice and sweet, ahaks, free kan of course lah nice.

just now, got Tarian Naga @ Ericsson lobby.

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alhamdulillah, rezeki lagi.. even nilai matawang MYR now ni tak berapa tinggi tapi tetap bersyukur dengan apa yang aku dapat. went to CIMB to collect the money, USD-MYR. earning money from 'Lawyer blog'.

Credit to Dr Khirruddin who taught me how to do it. last time dapat banyak sikit due to the money value. anyway, thank god.

owh, its already Feb. merasmikan E// organiser 2009. dah bulan 2 dah ni.

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER.

Self Improvement

keep thinking of my intention furthering study which is stopped last time due to my responsibilities.. now, its quite comfortable for me to make a move.
met my advisor yesterday, and this is prior issue we were discussing about yesterday. siap bergaduh lagi, kalau tak bergaduh, bertelagah and bercanggah pendapat memang tak sah. ahaks :) but 1 thing, my advisor is someone i cant afford to lose to. mana nak cari kan kawan yang tahan dengan orang degil macam i ni.
degil i ada makna ok.
teringat cita2 nak jadi lawyer dulu yang terkambus dek keizinan family, alasannya rezeki lawyer dihujung tanduk kerana ada ketikanya kita membela pesalah.
i should twist their perception, thats my mission now.
LAW IS A REASON FREE FROM PASSION.

as of today, Tuesday

suamiku di pagi hari, siap pakai baju je terus on tv tengok bola sementara tunggu breakfast dihidangkan, sambil breakfast stokin pun dipakaikan.. menjaga suami sorang ni bagaikan menjaga anak kecil yang sering merengek. makin manja, ya rabbi, kadang2 sampai tak larat nak layan. so Tina, jangan lupa take note ok, jog down.. ahaks ;p

MiP meeting @ DiGi Subang Hitech.
found that why should E// always discuss about issue of resources during the meeting, thats our internal right. E1 towards BJB7 completed before CNY but... 3 data cells missing. DiGi concern why dont we use CNA as previous practice which successfully working before. no need to bring up regardless issue. what should we do is, consistency check to makesure no any data missing before migration. whatever tools need to be used, CNA or manually just makesure there will be no error or missing. issue2 lain no need to be disscussed, dont make something simple to complicated. perut dah lapar, meeting tak habis2. Siva-DiGi sampai sms i sebab tak larat nak tengok drama keep arguing each other, padahal Siva just sit next to me. actually we both dah lapar... kekkkekekkekkeee

Lunch with TNA
dapat juga lunch dengan tina. im so excited!!! she is getting married, the date is fixed. yezzzzaaaaaaa, welcome to the club tina.

Mama Modern

during last weekend, communication via sms with Tina wife to be MKB. sembang2 then she said, kelakarlah kita ni, dah jadi someone's wife pun still sms each other sometimes, mama modern.
kekkekekee, i was so bored. alone at home. she asked me the recipe.. that must be nice kalau Tina stay somewhere around my house. when MKB attend classes, i may fetch her and gemukkan dia kat rumah i. jangankan mee goreng basah udang, macam2 menu i will do for her.
cooking is the nicest things to do, memasak boleh meluahkan rasa sayang, menggambarkan sebuah perasaan yang tak terluah oleh kata2. memasak dengan penuh rasa kasih sayang adalah petua utama untuk menjadikan makanan tu sedap. believe it? try it.

today is Monday, is it Monday blueesssss.. eerrrkkk. tak sempat nak blues2, plenty of work to get done.
but 1 thing that i received which is membuatkan i bersemangat hari ni.. kui kui kui..

Missing Him So Much

he is working today, im alone at home. yesterday my housemates came to my house, so not really lonely.
today, i miss him so much, miss his kiss, miss his hug, his touch, miss him miss him.. his breath smells nice, suka sangat bau nafas dia, and also bau k***ak dia...
masih terasa kucupan and pelukan pagi tadi, bisikannya sentiasa terngiang di telinga.. whispering...i love u..
seksanya nak tunggu pukul 3, uhuk uhuk...