MVSH8 HW Defect

Finally, this morning... this issue almost 'basi' ok.. wink :)

Catch It Up - Remember Those Day, Memori Dulu, Kini dan Selamanya..

mengimbas kenangan terindah during my primary school.. and normally, appreciate those primary school friends most sebab to me, ikatan persahabatan itulah yang terindah dan terikhlas.. saat tu hati kita masing2 masih suci. tiada hasad, tiada dengki, tiada iri hati.. of course, masa tu budak2 lagi.
jauh beza kalau nak dibandingkan dengan teman2 universiti, ketika tu dah remaja, hati dan diri telah dicampuri pelbagai perasaan yang tidak enak.. well, malas nak cerita panjang. i think, anyone may understand..
inilah teman2 dari usia kanak2ku hingga kini... dulu2, pergi tuition kat rumah teacher Rosnah sama, rehat sama, GERKO sama2 naik basikal sambil makan ice-cream pong :) , persembahan tarian pun sama2, and also sekelas, kena marah dgn cikgu Mahfod pun telinga kita sama2 dengar.. kelakar betul masa tu. suka sangat. miss that moment much..

time goes by....

terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian...

and, time flies.....

after few years.. below our picture on last hari raya at my house..

myself, already someone's wife.. WHO'S NEXT??

WEDDING 1 (31 MAY 2009, SUNDAY)

Umi Salmah and her daughter, Qaseh Qaisara

my husband yang tengah sedap makan..

sessi temankan pengapit makan, barulah aku makan. earlier, hubby je yang makan and i just temankan.

pengantin takde, we all pulak sibuk bersanding atas pelamin..

with newlywed.. Jannatunnaim

ok, this one ramai2 with the newlywed..

(berdiri dari kiri) - Anas, pengantinss, Me

(duduk dari kiri) - Firdaus, Najhan, Fuad, Shahidan and Suhana.

see.. sempat lagi si Idan and Sue tu bergurau sondo.. ewah ewah.. :)

i was so excited, early morning dah gosok my baju and my hubby punya baju and seluar. and so happy.. of courselah, nak jumpa kawan2 lama.. :)
and i guess, either SHAHIDAN or SUHANA will be our next wedding re-union :)

siapa dulu agaknya korang ni..

teringin nak bersanding lagi sekali ke.. :)

WEDDING 2 (31 MAY 2009, SUNDAY)

dengan Along, pengantin yang dah tukar uniform. nak kena buli basuh periuk ke. ahaks...

with Roslin, masa ni dia dah nak balik. lepas sembang2, salam2 dia pun balik. orang busy, tak selalulah kita dapat jumpa..

Nana and Nini.

Dasar Kelisa, Kenari or Kancil...

just loaded washing machine, basuh baju awal2 due to tomorrow morning will be heading to Tina's wedding.
own my way home just now, something spoiled me. memang dasar kereta2 kecik macam tu kot.. DAMN!!

why should they are driving very slow on very right lane. unacceptable, driving dekat fast lane tapi their speed mengalahkan kura2. motorbike fastest than them. benci sangat2..
dah bagi 'light' berapa kali entah tadi as signal asking them to move and keep left.. boleh buat b***h je. ini boleh mendatangkan kemarahan. left lane ada van slow, adatlah tu.. fast lane ada driver bodoh sombong yang perasan jalanraya tu dibuat dengan menggunakan duit dia agaknya..


teringat kata2 seseorang, "bawak kereta kecik tapi lagak mengalahkan kereta mewah, sombong mengalahkan kereta besar"

WHERE ALL YOUR MANNERS GONE?? takde kesedaran sivik langsung..

sepanjang pengalaman saya memandu, if im not mistaken already 10 years.. memang itulah fenomenanya. selalunya kereta mewah and besar2 tu more tolerate and consider about others. ada benarnya kata2 tu, bukan nak memandang rendah pada pemandu or pemilik kereta kecik2 ni, yang penting timbangrasa.. jalanraya tu bukan sendiri punya...

dah masuk maghrib, baik saya solat tenangkan and redakan hati.. also nak doakan supaya orang2 macam sedar diri. renung-renungkan ye.. adios..

the day i've forgot that i do own a blog...

me and Tine 'sms'ing that afternoon, suddenly she asked to update my blog... ooppsss, really dont remember about that. ahaks.. boleh pulak terlupa saya ada blog..

here are some updates for our vacation which called 'never break your promised' holiday.. you know why? ha ha..

promised to my little sis, Mumtaza and Farzana. for this time exam they both got good result, both dapat no. 1 so kenalah kotakan janji. normally, bila Mum no. 1, Jana dapat no. 3, or else bila Jana no. 1 Mum dapat no. 2.

as my promised, kalau both dapat no. 1 will bring them to 'jalan2' during school break.

we were heading to Malacca by 2 cars, my family and ande's family. as planned, my hubby will join later on Tuesday due to.. dont want to mention, dia busy ok.

but surprisingly, Monday late night he was there. not sure what time was that tapi rasanya pukul 2 pagi kot dia sampai... :)

below are few moments captured there..

this one during our seafood dinner at Pantai Klebang, the siakap 3 rasa and siakap bakar sambal really nice. worth it..

captured after did check out and returned the key. astalavista bandar Malacca. will be here again soon..

happy face, was looking for 'buah tangan'..

No Harm to.... Mengalah

around in the office about 11am after met Mohan @ Lot 30, DiGi for BSC BSKP1 & BSSH11. got plenty of work but dont know which one to start. I was supposed to meet Tina after met Mohan but I dont think today I can make it.

Do you sometimes force a smile even you dont mean it?

Its not about lie or fake. Im not actually happy, but I want to seem as if I am. Im forced to fake a smile, a laugh for the sake of someone nearby that I really care about… but today, I don’t think I can especially for this lady who called friend, more than that maybe.

reached basement, was looking for parking space. just in time, got sms from my husband..

I perlukn u sgt2. Sntiasa ingn dekat dgn mummy.Tp keadaan n kerja i y x m'izinkn. Kalau i blh keje mcm u remotely from home, cuti xyh apply, keje blh pg lmbt n blk awl, gaji byk, xyh b'pns n b'hujn, xyah ot mcm u, alangkh bahagiany hdp i. Tp i ttp syukur dgn rezeki y ada skrg jika dbndgkn org lain y xda keje n klu dbndingkn dgn gaji lama i. i jg b'terima ksh ats semangat y u bagi pada i hingga i mampu b'ada di tahap ini. Tp dlm hati kecil i, i rs b'slh sgt kt mummy sbb x selalu dpt spend time dgn mummy n family kita. Tp apakndaya, i kn kerja kuat n cb elak dr d buang keje time2 recession ni. T'pulnglh bg mummy utk menilai i. I sdr i mmg suami y x sempurna spt y mummy hrpkn. tp i jnji akn s'tiasa jd y t'baik utk u syg.. utk ank2 kita n keluarga kita.. (sorry for those words perosak perkataan, malas nak retype so just forward to my broadband number, copy and paste)

saya terdiam seketika di dalam kereta, ada rembesan airmata tanpa saya sedari. hati saya benar2 tersentuh membacanya. tanpa saya sedari, tindakan saya berdiam diri dan dingin sepanjang malam dan pagi tadi benar2 melukakan hati suami saya. berdosanya saya kerana membuat suami saya terasa rendah diri dengan membandingkan profession antara kami berdua. Ya Allah!

abang, maafkanlah isterimu yang melampau ini. tidak abang, jangan sesekali bandingkan begitu. Abang tetap yang terbaik. Sungguhpun jumlah setiap bulan yang abang perolehi tidak seperti jumlah yang I dapat, tapi abang tidak pernah abaikan tanggungjawab abang terhadap keperluan I and keperluan rumah juga dapur. Itu bukanlah ukuran, apa yang I perlukan hanyalah masa dari u sayang. Tapi I silap sayang, seharusnya I bersyukur dengan setiap detik dan saat yang u luangkan untuk i. I juga sepatutnya sentiasa memahami pekerjaan dan tanggungjawab u terhadap kerja. I perlu lebih redha dengan halangan ini, inikan dugaan kita sayang.
Ya Rabbi, betapa alpanya aku akan ujianMu.

Saya biarkan emosi kembali tenang, terus menuju lift naik ke office. sms dari suami tidak saya balas. Panjang2 terlintas dalam fikiran tak saya jelaskan pada suami yang sedang bergelut dengan perasaan.. sebabnya? Saya adalah orang yang malas nak bersms, its better voice call than taip satu2, lambat, buang masa.. but to call him at this moment, I don’t think so this is the right time. Semakin banjirlah saya nanti. Nantilah. Siapkan kerja yang melambak dulu then petang sikit baru talk to him.

Sedari tadi tak bergerak dari workstation, busy with those task and mostly to forget the problem..
His solution that Ive received just now, betul2 memujuk hati saya. He might not to be with us on Monday, but he will straight away drive to Melaka by lunch time on the following day which means by 3pm on Tuesday, he would be with me and family. Alhamdulillah…

see below picture, my husband memang suka baby and budak-budak.. that was taken last weekend at my cousin's house @ Pristana, Saujana Utama for visiting her newborn baby girl. ni masa about to leave for home, he said.. daddy nak cium baby dulu, sayang baby sayang baby.. then sambil cium baby tu dia bisik2 apa entah dengan baby. both so comel, baby and daddy as well. wish can have my own by next year, insyaALLAH..

Why Is It So Sudden?!

im not in good mood suddenly. how do u feel if your husband cancelled something well planned earlier? its really hurt.
am i dont understand my own husband? or actually he is the one who dont. ive been trying to understand his work since he has decided to attached with oil and gas industry and if im not mistaken that was about 2 years back. but, for this time, i cant stand anymore.
i was so excited to be away somewhere with him for 5 days but DAMN!!!!!!!
was informed by him this afternoon, his reason ruined everything. i just can say nothing unless 'urrmm, never mind. its fine. ok, gotta go. bye'
deep inside my heart, Hanya ALLAH Yang Tahu.

i was driving home from DiGi and got urgent matter which needs me to be online. now, im here. stopped somewhere, Petronas nearby my house. blogging with tears.

SORRY is easy to say but it wont change anything even to cure the torn in my heart.
this is something MUST be learned. wise time spent much more precious than everything, not just simply breaking his promises.
to be frank, i really wish.. what if, i would say this to him.

how to reduce this pain?
i need to stop crying, i cant see clearly.

i wish i dont have to go home, because i dont feel that way.

Ya Allah, aku mohon kekuatan dan kesabaran dariMu Ya Allah.........................................

as requested by Ms Tina and so on...

owh, long time no see.. its been a while tak blogging. sangat busy and extremely malas. especially due to my low blood pressure condition. nope, im not pregnant. might be next year, will be getting my own, mr zarul jr. cant wait :) ok ok, will keep u guys updated very soon.

starts with the flow of story ok..

on 10th of May, my husband bought this for Mother's Day.. but definitely, nana makan sikit je. should know better siapa yang makan banyak, of course my hubby the buyer of the cake.



and down here, lauk for dinner on Thursday instead of cicak goreng tu cik tina. we were laughing on our way to cyberjaya from subang hitech after meeting @ DiGi and yam cha idea kak azian. took tina to cyberjaya meeting her MKB dearie.. gelak bagai nak pecah perut sebab menu of cicak goreng. asked my hubby what he wanna have for dinner so i may prepare it for him, he answered anything then i said, oklah if that case cicak goreng nak. encik suami saya tu pun cakap ok jugak, sedap tu.. macam nak terputus urat kentut gelak, owh, i cant imagine.. sooo yaakkk! tak lalu nak makan.



and this one my lunch on Friday, busy day. kak liza did take away for me from Alamanda. at last tak sempat makan pun, bawak balik rumah then my husband settled the McD.



hurrrmmm, the below pictures were actually for my birthday on 15th of May. he surprised me with something dalam periuk and something inside the fridge. i was about to prepare dinner and so shocked, surprised and speechless. so adorable. thanks bie.. the most precious actually u reminds me to my birthday each year since over year ago. im the one who always forgot my own birthday and yours as well. my apology, honey.



GPS - with GPS you are always in the know wherever you go



bila anda rasa uncomfortable or else, rasa menyemak je benda monitor kecil tu for your view of driving, what should you do. i was thinking where to put... letak kat situ when its needed or required, kalau tak just simpan dalam box in between kerusi driver and penumpang hadapan. habis cerita.



satisfied of the cleanliness now than before, dah macam tongkang pecah. nak drive pun serabut kepala. tong sampah ke kereta ni.. ahaks :)

ok, this one captured to show muka puas hati sebab kereta dah bersih and kemas. oopppsss, sorry. gelaplah gambar, my P1i not cybershot camera handphone lah. tapi at this moment no intention yet of buying new hp due to priority of using my hp not to take picture.

ok, this time much clearer.

enough here ok, i need to stop my merepek2 idea ni. got meeting @ DiGi about 2pm. wahhh.. pasti panas cuaca ketika itu. sila mengantuk dan malas. ahak :)

see u there tina.