Ciwek & Cengeng

saya sering digelarkan dgn 2 gelaran kat atas tu, yes.. saya memang mudah menangis..
and now ni, airmata sedang meleleh2 menangis sebab melihat gambar2 keluarga bahagia orang lain.. picture with The Other Half, kids.. they are so sweet..

hati sedih, sayu, menangis kerana terlalu inginkan punya keluarga begitu.. with my the other half, ada anak2, at least 2.. must be so nice and happy..
but i can just dream of it and hopefully its just for the time being..
and i hope New Zealand is a place where i can have all those on my own, without no one else.. only me, my other half and have our own kids, life, love & privacy.. and the most is i may focus on my work and further study yg dah lama sangat tertangguh2..

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya hanya Engkau yg mengerti, maha mengetahui apa yg terbaik untukku..