dear diary

above are the place where i like to go when i need refreshment..

-Ericsson coffee area wing B (any floor as long as wing B)
-DiGi open air area (next to their bakery cafe)

just went coffee area, was thinking of something.

my point is.... feel need to jog down something..

this problem occured when i retrieve email from my hubby sent to his friends, forward wedding picture of us.
i saw something strange. one of the receiver was in the loop 's***** m****'??
i really need to know who is that, when i asked my hubby.. jawapannya menghampakan. so, i have to find it on my own.

tapi aku ni really dont know how and dont have time to find it out.
i told my PA how to find out people by email address.
i really need to know.
PA yg baik hati tu pun volunteer to do it for me.
am i lazy?
owh... got plenty work else nak buat.

few days after, i was told that regards person ada friendster and blog.
wow, wonderful PA. can be PI as well.
oh god, so shocked. someone ive met before.
no wonder dia marah aku by the time i called her.
i still wonder, whats going on??

kenapa dia marah sangat kat aku, apa kaitannya with my husband?
confusing.
i guess, its more than 3 times aku pernah baca blog dia and sometimes her entry was about apa yang dia alami because right now she is pregnant.
before this dua kali aku ada sms dia tanya khabar and wish hari raya if im not mistaken, she replied tapi bila dia tanya aku siapa.. aku tak balas.
should i tell her who am i.?
teringin sangat nak sms dia and bagi semangat untuk dia menghadapi saat saat kelahiran.
or else maybe boleh kongsi pengalaman and cerita.

nak sms ke tak, nak sms ke tak.
kalau kena marah macam dulu, how?

aku perlukan kekuatan.