my lappy background desktop

my favourite picture as for now.. ;p

seems lost

memang dah lama tak menulis disini, seems no longer to write anything here.. sedangkan aku memang mengerti hakikat manusia, sering mempertikaikan tentang status, gaji, kedudukan and etc etc etc.
dan aku juga amat memahami sikap manusia yg akan irihati, hasad dengki dengan kesenangan atau kejayaan orang lain.. so, decided not to write much here. ada ketikanya manusia bertopeng, baik dihadapan tapi sebaliknya bila tidak kelihatan. tak kurang juga mereka yg matang hanya pada usia, tapi jiwa.... sayang tak cukup matang seperti umurnya. minda dan kelakuan juga masih seperti manusia yg kurang akalnya.
memang sudah agak lama tidak aku endahkan senario ini, aku tak punya banyak masa untuk dihabiskan disitu. cuma ada ketikanya hatiku terdetik, belum berubah lagi rupanya manusia2 ini, masih macam dulu, masih seperti dibangku sekolah...walaupun sudah berkerja, sudah berumahtangga, bercahayamata..
biarlah, aku juga tak pernah mengharap mereka dalam hidup ini...
buat mereka yg ikhlas mendampingi, ku ucapkan ribuan terima kasih. aku amat2 menghargai..

aku cukup bahagia dengan kehidupanku kini, kerjayaku, kemilikanku, kejayaan adik2ku, kasih sayang dan segalanya yg telah Allah berikan. sesungguhnya aku sujud syukur kepadaNya.. Alhamdulillah.

lately, just like normal life.. being a working wife.. busy. stress of work is something i couldnt resist but i do enjoy my job.. even i have to stay late in the office, even i have to answer call in a midnight for issue of activity, even sleepless, exhaustic, rushing here and there.. but i do, i do love my job.
recently, received few email of appreciation and 1 of them has been sent to country manager to revert on certain issue which is resolved and my name was mentioned there...
no word i could say.. but i swear, im not doing well for the sake of any award or appreciation. indeed, its because i love my working life, and because of its my responsibility..
i dont need that high compliment, i just try as best as i can... do all my best.

penat lelah, segalanya terubat once completed and achieved.

dan kejayaan, kecemerlangan harta peninggalan arwah abiku cukup membuatku bahagia.
tahniah buat adik2ku atas anugerah tokoh pelajar dan tokoh pelajar nilam.

hidupku kebelakangan ni seperti normal dan biasanya, cuma dah jarang bershopping sebab busy dan banyak travel. and i used to easier method, online shopping which is more saver; tenaga & masa. once a while, pergi jugak shopping mall. tengok wayang dgn husband, still got chance to hang out with friends. so, just a normal life.... tapi aku banyak terperap kat rumah, malas sangat nak keluar..
saat ini, even long weekend due to public holiday on Friday, im @ home still. tak kemana2.. ada niat nak ke sunway pyramid to do some shopping but ended up, shopping baju online.

thinking of S&P agreement, forgot to call the lawyer to check completion status. moga2 process buying a house dipermudahkan Allah, insyaAllah.
arranged car rental for our next trip to Brisbane, teringin nak drive suzuki swift. so now, all in place. cuma still browsing accommodation kat sana nanti to compare and find the best.
cant wait to feel the Autumn.

browsing what else korean series i can buy online, itu jela yg aku buat duduk kat rumah during weekend.. sampai lebam2 mata menangis, haha.. malas gila nak keluar.
found nice wedding gown just now, waiting revert from the seller for money transfer purpose... its for photography session, location maybe kat Putrajaya bridge..
owh, my family will be here tomorrow... yeahhhh..
please, taknak travel lagi. letih..
sunway lagoon je ye, ok, deal..
ok, need to check dvd yg tak tengok lagi. lets movie..

oh ya, Salam Maal Hijrah everybody...

Shurini + Jay

i was called by my friend this early morning and owh.. its hard to believe..

my sincere condolences on the passing of Jay's (Pretty Ugly) dear wife, Shurini who is our coursemate when we were in university.. Al-Fatihah
http://www.gua.com.my/Entertainment/Showbiz-Detail.aspx?ArticleID=4300

it has been a while

i dont write anything here, will jot down something and maybe later once its convenience to me.. i do have so much to share to release but just a matter of time as constraint..
im sure it will be soon.. insyaAllah..

current status.......

ANDY LAU - KELLY CHEN: I Don't Love You Enough

I don't love you enough
wo bu gou ai ni



我想我不够爱你　我不曾忘了自己
没那么全心投入　所以会一败涂地

wǒ xiǎng wǒ bùgòu ai - nǐ wǒ bùcéng wàng le zìjǐ
méi nàme quán xīn tóurù - suǒyǐ huì yī bài Tú Dì

I think I don't love you enough, I never forgot myself
I haven't put that much of my heart in this, so I have been defeated

我想我不够爱你　我忘了你的勇气
没办法重来一次　也只好听天由命

wǒ xiǎng wǒ bùgòu ai nǐ -- wǒ wàng le nǐ de yòng qí
méi bànfǎ zhònglái yīcì -- yě zhǐhǎo tīng tiān yóu mìng

I think I don't love you enough, I've forgotten your courage
There's no way to go back to the beginning, so I can only listen to what Fate's got for me

不能在没有月亮的夜里
也不能轻易地闭上眼睛
因为你会出现　在天空或心里

bùnéng zài méiyǒu yuèliàng de yèli
yě bùnéng qīngyìdi bìshàngyǎnjīng
yīnwéi nǐ huì chūxiàn zài tiānkōng huò xīnli

can't be in a moonless night
I also can't easily close my eyes
Because you might appear in the sky or my heart

不能在一望无尽的地方
也不能钻进那拥挤人群

bùnéng zài yī wàng wújǐn de dìfang
yě bùnéng zuānjìn nà yōngjǐ rénqún

I can't be in a place with an endless horizon
I also can't make my way through the crowd

因为寂不寂寞　都会惊醒我
我失去了我不够爱的你

yīnwéi jì bù jìmò dōuhuì jīngxǐng wǒ
wǒ shīqù le wǒ bùgòu ai de nǐ

Because lonely or not, it'll all bring to my mind--
I lost the one I didn't love enough

我想我不够爱你　我不曾忘了自己
没那么全心投入　所以会一败涂地

wǒ xiǎng wǒ bùgòu ai - nǐ wǒ bùcéng wàng le zìjǐ
méi nàme quán xīn tóurù - suǒyǐ huì yī bài Tú Dì

I think I don't love you enough, I never forgot myself
I haven't put that much of my heart in this, so I have been defeated

我想我不够爱你　我忘了你的勇气
没办法重来一次　也只好听天由命

wǒ xiǎng wǒ bùgòu ai nǐ -- wǒ wàng le nǐ de yòng qí
méi bànfǎ zhònglái yīcì -- yě zhǐhǎo tīng tiān yóu mìng

I think I don't love you enough, I've forgotten your courage
There's no way to go back to the beginning, so I can only listen to what Fate's got for me

不能在没有月亮的夜里
也不能轻易地闭上眼睛
因为你会出现　在天空或心里

bùnéng zài méiyǒu yuèliàng de yèli
yě bùnéng qīngyìdi bìshàngyǎnjīng
yīnwéi nǐ huì chūxiàn zài tiānkōng huò xīnli

can't be in a moonless night
I also can't easily close my eyes
Because you might appear in the sky or my heart

不能在一望无尽的地方
也不能钻进那拥挤人群

bùnéng zài yī wàng wújǐn de dìfang
yě bùnéng zuānjìn nà yōngjǐ rénqún

I can't be in a place with an endless horizon
I also can't make my way through the crowd

因为寂不寂寞　都会惊醒我
我失去了我不够爱的你

yīnwéi jì bù jìmò dōuhuì jīngxǐng wǒ
wǒ shīqù le wǒ bùgòu ai de nǐ

Because lonely or not, it'll all bring to my mind--
I lost the one I didn't love enough

I'm LOCKED

this is not the first time, it has happened before.
DAMN!!
due to my period pain, yeah ITS DAMN PAIN.. im working remotely from home. but i have to be in office by 3pm because i have to attend 1 session at 3.3opm with Yinthing & Grace.
and just now, im ready and was about to go out... aha! then occured that my house key is not with me.
i am LOCKED in my own house. what should i do, mengamuk?? grrrrrrrrrr..
yes, ikutkan hati rasa nak mengamuk but unfortunately by doing so cant get this resolved.
right away called Yinthing and luckily it can be postponed..
due to twice has happened, i better do the duplicate key another one to keep in house and another one will let security post guard keep for me.
in future if its gonna happen again, i may have spare keep in house or else i may get security to get me out of here...
my head is already dizzy and its now become more ddiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyy ok.
if i mention to anyone about this surely i kena gelak punya!

.....................................

and ive got time to read my hubby's blog.. since he wrote in his blog, yes, i admit.
i jauh hati sangat2 with him until i have to keep myself away from him.
how does it feel??? its definitely pain.
sometimes, i hate it. i do hate it much!
but nothing i can do... because im just a wife......

Shi Luo Sha Zhou - Lala Xu Jia Ying

Shi Luo Sha Zhou




又来到这个港口

you lai dao zhe ge gang kou

没有原因的拘留

mei you yuan yin de ju liu

我的心乘著斑驳的轻舟

wo de xin cheng zhe ban bo de qing zhou

寻找失落的沙洲

xun zhao shi luo de sha zhou

随 时间的海浪漂流

sui shi jian de hai lang piao liu

我用力张开双手

wo yong li zhang kai shuang shou

拥抱那么多起起落落

yong bao na me duo qi qi luo luo

想念的还是你望着我的眼波

xiang nian de hai shi ni wang zhe wo de yan bo

Chorus:

我不是一定要你回来

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当又一个人看海

zhi shi dang you yi ge ren kan hai

回头才发现你不在

hui tou cai fa xian ni bu zai

留下我迂回的徘徊

liu xia wo yu hui de pai huai

我不是一定要你回来

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当又把回忆翻开

zhi shi dang you ba hui yi fan kai

除了你之外的空白

chu le ni zhi wai de kong bai

还有谁能来教我爱

hai you shei neng lai jiao wo ai

又回到这个尽头 我也想再往前走

you hui dao zhe ge jin tou, wo ye xiang zai wang qian zou

只是愈看见海阔天空

zhi shi yue kan jian hai kuo tian kong

愈遗憾没有你分享我的感动

yu yi han mei you ni fen xiang wo de gan dong

Repeat Chorus

我不是一定要你回来

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当又一个人看海

zhi shi dang you yi ge ren kan hai

疲惫的身影不是我

pi bei de shen ying bu shi wo

不是你想看见的我

bu shi ni xiang kan jian de wo

我不是一定要你回来

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当独自走入人海

zhi shi dang du zi zou ru ren hai

除了你之外的依赖

chu le ni zhi wai de yi lai

还有谁能叫我勇敢

hai you shei neng jiao wo yong gan

除了你之外的空白

chu le ni zhi wai de kong bai

还有谁能来教我爱

hai you shei neng lai jiao wo ai



im currently soooooooo damn busy. got no time to write and nothing to share about.........

but i do loves this song so much, madly in love with this song since my birthday on May if im not mistaken.. so i just try to allocate my time few mins to post this out and share with..

especially for my lovely readers.. sis june and sis tina.. (only u both pun and no one else reading this blog, ahaks) GONNA MISS U SIS TINA, LOVE U ALWAYS..

15.10.2009

now is 10.20pm. i just safely home about 15mis. took my shower and about to close my tired eyes.
on Tuesday, i was home too late... almost 2am so that was already Wednesday.
about 2.30am received notification that VMS-RO implementation had been halted due to MVSK3 reload at 2250 while doing first backup.. but i was too sleepy so decided to be in the office early morning after few hours sleep.
9am i reached office and was on my way, almost heat 1 car due to so sleepy. luckily i manage to control.. fiuh..

as 15th OCT today, its been 3 years arwah Abi passed away. how i wish he still with us, i do really really really miss him.
semoga Abi tenang disana, hanya Al-fatihah dapat kuhadiahkan due to 'period'.
sometimes i wonder, how can i have Abi as previous...?
even just for a day, or maybe just for an hour. i miss him much.....
Al-Fatihah....

this is something on Monday...

of course i miss u dear..
today away from u after long leave together, i feel so sad. cant even smile.


From: Muhd Zahrul [mailto:zahrul@sa.petra.com.my]
Sent: Monday, September 28, 2009 9:49 AM
To: Farhana Sairuji XF
Subject: RE: Welcome Back To Office

Love u 2,3,4,5,6,7……
Already miss u syg..
U?

From: Farhana Sairuji XF [mailto:farhana.xf.sairuji@ericsson.com]
Sent: Monday, September 28, 2009 9:13 AM
To: Muhd Zahrul
Subject: Welcome Back To Office

Dear Hubby,
Welcome back for work.
Love u always…

Thanks & Regards
Farhana Sairuji
Ericsson (M) Sdn. Bhd.

when the time comes

wo de pengyou Joo Wei, ta hen piaoliang (not so sure, is it true?)
anyway, i was informed just now she is now waiting for the precious moment.
lets pray for her.
induced this morning, should be today i will receive good news from her.
just a short one, will update later when im a bit free.

..............................................................................
received from +601xxxxx800>
Baby boy Max is officially in town! Weighing a healthy 3.48kg. Both baby Max & JooWei is doin great n resting well. From Andrew
Time: 01/10/2009 10:11pm

congratulation dear on your newborn baby boy. happy parenting! :)

Salam Lebaran - Eid Mubarak

today..just came back from a week leave, got so many things to be settled.
before that,



I would like to wish
"Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri and Maaf Zahir & Batin".

May this togetherness with your loved ones fill your soul with sweetness today and may Allah bless you & your family this Eid & always, InsyaAllah.

hope everyone valued a great holiday and precious moment with your family

sincerely

me & hubby

finally freeze..

finally network freeze for festive..
im currently being very busy, my mind sooooo exhausted..
insyaAllah, there is a hikmah for this.

its 5pm already, im about to go home do the final packing and will be heading to hometown tomorrow morning. i need to do some shopping but i dont think my hubby willing to do so.
its better to go alone but for sure he wont allow me.

hopefully this hari raya holiday will let me release all in my mind then i need to think once im back after the whole week leave next week.
thanks a lot to joo wei tan, the piaoliang network designer who was gave me some advise and support. xie xie laoshi :)

got to do my auto reply mail for next whole week then will go home.
Alhamdulillah, dapat aku merasai nikmat ramadhan dan syawal sekali lagi. mudah2an there will be another one next year (means dipanjangkan umur).

the phase

day by day become so tough.. treating it positively as learning more and gaining more. its already 7.02pm, about to go off and will drink mineral water for buka puasa, im sure still driving home by Azan.

Dugaan Ramadhan..

extremely busy and really really really headache.. SIGTRAN features activation issue lagi buat sakit kepala, what if already fly to KK then activity postponed, aduhaii...seems project's cost is my money. why should i bother? yes, i should.. itu tanggungjawab yang telah diberikan.

office now is very very make me sick, temperature DAMN cold! everybody pakai coat and sweater dah macam kerja kat overseas. Ericsson Malaysia dah tukar jadi Ericsson Stockholm barangkali. sejuk mencengkam sampai sakit kepala.

today memang tak larat masak, dahlah semalam balik dari office lambat buka puasa kat Secret Recipe je, today pulak called Vicchuda before leave office then on my way home collect order. now safely home baru lepas solat asar... hubby is not feeling well, he's home earlier than me. badan panas sangat, risau.. i should take him to the clinic.

suddenly he told me something .... i dont know what should i do. marah? ikutkan hati yes, i do have right sebab dia careless. ikutkan iman tengah puasa ni, i just calm down. turn on laptop and ask him to transfer all the money to my maybank account. Alhamdulillah the money still there in his account but he lost RM300++ with his wallet.

dugaan Ramadhan, insyaAllah pasti ada hikmahnya. takpe ye daddy, insyaAllah rezeki lain yang akan datang, mungkin amount dalam wallet u tu bukan untuk kita tapi siapa tahu dapat pada orang yang lebih memerlukan...

Keep this smells

keep this smell everytime as i've been smelling this everywhere.. only miracle suits me and thats why im always smell this, smell me :)

as i hope Miracle to be with me each day..

Tina, mommy to be..

last weekend purposely bought Pa & Ma magazine due to so many info can be shared with Tina..

to be better while morning sickness.. or else not only for morning..



dear, attached might not really clear.. pdf will be submitted to your mail later.
take care :)

Tanggal 31 Ogos

Titik titik perjuangan...
teringat aku kembali teater yang pernah aku pentaskan bersama rakan2 seperjuangan satu ketika dulu.. miss all that. how i wish to return back my time.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan.

Merdekakanlah diri dan jiwa kita dari jajahan, bukan merdeka hanya pada nama.

PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN.

Sepi by Yuni Shara

this morning on my way to office listened to this song, my mp3 plays this song and outside was raining.. so touched. and i think this song would be nice to be played with my finger.. will look for the chord.

Sepi hati terjadi lagi

Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi

Biar senyum hadir di hariku namun ini hanya ada di bibir di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti walaupun yang lain mau mengerti

Namun berat beban hidup kubiarkan saja

Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidup kupenuh duri dan banyak ranjau

Butuh kesabaran yang penuh untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara bila hatiku telah bulat

Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua aku tetap diam

Woo.. sejarah cinta dan hidupku

Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau

Butuh kesabaran yang penuh untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara bila hatiku telah bulat

Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua aku tetap diam

Huawei Iu-Flex & Ericsson Core

for data gathering...
im in level 4 what's up meeting room @ DiGi.
i am now actually 'tergeliat telinga' listening presentation from Huawei.
data request of IuCS IUflex, so aku ini pun nak kena request cotton bud nak korek telinga.

kev, my heart and my mind is already in Cyberjaya office ni, need u to fix problem with my pc and eridoc. dah lah puasa2 ni, macam rasa nak makan orang!

Antara Michael Jackson & Marwa Al-Sharbini

Sedih. Miris. Itulah yang saya rasakan ketika melihat tayangan pemakaman the King of Pop, Michael Jackson yang begitu gegap gempita di televisi-televisi kita sepanjang hari kemarin. Beberapa stasiun tv bahkan bela-belain menayangkan tayangan eksklusif langsung dari AS acara penghormatan terakhir bagi si Raja Musik Pop sampai pagi ! Dan entah berapa juta mata masyarakat Indonesia yang rela menahan kantuk demi menyaksikan acara itu.

Saya sedih, bukan karena kematian MJ yang dipuja jutaan orang di dunia. Tapi saya sedih, karena pada saat yang sama, berlangsung pemakaman seorang muslimah yang Insya Allah menjadi seorang syahidah karena mempertahankan jilbabnya. Marwa Al-Sharbini, seorang ibu satu anak yang sedang mengandung tiga bulan, wafat akibat ditikam sebanyak 18 kali oleh seorang pemuda Jerman keturunan Rusia yang anti-Islam dan anti-Muslim. Tapi berita ini, sama sekali tidak saya temukan di televisi-televisi Indonesia, negara yang mayoritas penduduknya Muslim, bahkan mungkin, tak banyak dari kita yang tahu akan peristiwa yang menimpa Marwa.

Ribuan orang di Mesir yang mengantar jenazah Marwa ke tempat peristirahatannya yang terakhir, memang tidak sebanyak orang yang menangisi kepergian Michael Jackson. Marwa hanya seorang ibu dan bukan superstar seperti MJ. Tapi kepergian Marwa adalah lambang jihad seorang muslim. Marwa mempertahankan harga dirinya sebagai seorang Muslimah yang mematuhi ajaran agamanya meski untuk itu ia kehilangan nyawanya.

Marwa ditikam di ruang sidang kota Dresden, Jerman saat akan memberikan kesaksian atas kasusnya. Ia mengadukan sorang pemuda Jerman bernama Alex W yang kerap menyebutnya “teroris” hanya karena ia mengenakan jilbab. Dalam suatu kesempatan, pemuda itu bahkan pernah menyerang Marwa dan berusaha melepas jilbab Muslimah asal Mesir itu. Di persidangan itulah, Alex kembali menyerang Marwa, kali ini ia menikam Marwaberkali-kali. Suami Marwa yang berusaha melindungi isterinya, malah terkena tembakan kaparat keamanan pengadilan yang berdalih tak sengaja menembak suami Marwa yang kini dalam kondisi kritis di rumah sakit Dresden.

Peristiwa ini sepi dari pemberitaan di media massa Jerman dan mungkin dari pemberitaan media massa asing dunia karena yang menjadi korban adalah seorang muslimah yang dibunuh oleh orang Barat yang anti-Islam dan anti-Muslim. Situasinya mungkin akan berbeda jika yang menjadi korban adalah satu orang Jerman atau orang Barat yang dibunuh oleh seorang ektrimis Islam. Beritanya dipastikan akan gempar dan mendunia.

Itulah sebabnya, mengapa di tv-tv kita kemarin cuma dijejali dengan pemberitaan seputar pemakaman Michael Jackson yang mengharu biru itu. Tak ada berita pemakaman syahidah Marwa Al-Sharbini yang mendapat sebutan “Pahlwan Jilbab”. Tak ada protes dunia Islam atas kematiannya. Tak ada tangis kaum muslimin dunia untuknya. Tapi tak mengapa Marwa … karena engkau akan mendapatkan tempat yang paling mulia di sisiNya. Seiring doa dari orang-orang yang mencintaimu. Selamat jalan saudariku, maafkan kami jika kurang peduli …

finger touch

Marhaban ya Ramadhan, Bulan dimana nafas kita menjadi tasbih, tidur kita menjadi ibadah, amal kita diterima dan do'a kita di ijabah.

Mata kadang salah melihat....
Mulut kadang salah berucap....
Hati kadang salah menduga.....
Maafkan segala kekhilafan yang pasti ada....

Hari ni adalah 1st day umat islam berpuasa. as today is Saturday, my hubby is working.. lepas sahur dan solat subuh, mata pun dah tak boleh lelap balik so better kemas rumah but not much to do due to baju dah siap basuh malam tadi.. jadi saya berazam untuk khatam Al-Quran sekali lagi bulan puasa ni.

memandangkan saya tak perlu memasak disiang hari, bolehlah saya mengaftifkan kembali jari jemari saya untuk menari dan memetik sesuatu yang sudah agak lama tidak saya belai.. thats why ive attached ths 2 pictures.. semoga jari ini masih mahir menari dan memetik, saya mahu berlatih semula bersungguh2. so that i may teach my kids in future, no need to send them to any piano class. their own mother can be their teacher.. insyaAllah.

anyway, saya mengucapkan Selamat Berpuasa buat semua, Semoga Ramadhan membawa keberkatan kepada semua dan mengukuhkan ukhwah yang terbina..

owh! what's this?

damn! my heart still beating so fast.
lucky, i was busy liaising with Ericsson Jakarta, if not i would CRAZY!!
OMG.

*fasting month is just around the corner.
anyway, Selamat Berpuasa Everyone.

PPSMI

if u are reader of chedetblog, u may easily find comment of Zaini Mazlan (izyz@streamyx.com)
which im totally agree with.

and this is wrote by my lovely Tun
1. The Government has decided that the teaching of science and mathematics would revert to Malay in the Government school, with Chinese in Chinese schools and Tamil in Tamil schools. How this is going to help integrate Malaysians I do not know.

in my opinion, experienced as daughter of kampung teacher, ex uitm student and now working in MNC (Multi National Company), I FOUND PPSMI IS GOOD. my late father was a kampung teacher, just a kampung boy but to me he was so lucky because English was the only language used in his school so that he become very good in english and at the same time still good in BM due to thats our language we may communicate with family and friends. i dont see any reason to forget BM by putting English as priority, nothing wrong with that, just for education purpose. to COMPETE ourself and just take it positively.

to be frank, i do REGRET. kecewanya saya kerana PPSMI dimansuhkan kerana saya lihat potensinya menjadikan anak melayu kita mahupun warga negara Malaysia sejajar dengan bangsa2 maju yang lain meskipun antarabangsa.

Dikala Hujan...

7.37pm
just safely home, got my shower and now.. wow, i miss my bed.. tonight so called relaxxxx. tak solat, and no need to prepare dinner. hubby will be home late for futsal.
now is raining outside, even when almost reached home its started. reminds me to Tina.
i do like rain too.. i like the air, smell of the rain, airy and windy..
wherever i stay, Cameron Highlands, Ampang Hilir, Bukit Antarabangsa, Cyberjaya or my beloved hometown Parit Baru Sabak Bernam.. thats the best time i could get off the sliding door, duduk kat balcony and feel the great moment of rain. thats why i like to have buaian untuk letak kat each balcony and laman.. disitulah saya menikmati kebesaran Allah, keindahan bumi ciptaan Tuhan.. masyaAllah. tiada yang setandingnya..
me & Tina, we both admire the rain.. yes dear, everything to me turns to romantic and so calm when its raining especially when im driving.. so sentimental and listen to love song, wow...memang best.

kisah hujan mu itu mengusik hatiku.. berdoalah Tina agar makbul doa dan hajatmu. semoga esok akan hujan juga, satu rahmat hujan dimalam jumaat. berdoalah dan berharaplah sebanyak mungkin tanpa jemu. Allah itu tidak pernah bosan dengan permintaan hambaNya, hanya padaNya kita memohon. sabarlah sayang, anggap ini dugaan dariNya menguji kemampuanmu dan kesungguhanmu menjadi penghuni jannah.. tiada yang berlaku tanpa izin dariNya, segalanya hanya dengan izin Allah.

Buat sahabatku yang bergelar isteri, setialah pada suamimu kerana tempat isteri adalah disisi suaminya. Ada kisah yang berlaku di zaman Rasulullah SAW. Seorang suami berpesan kepada isterinya supaya tinggal dirumah sehingga dia pulang dari medan perang. Maka si isteri yang taat itu tinggallah dirumah menanti kepulangan suami yang tercinta. Namun si isteri didatangi perkhabaran buruk, ayahnya sakit tenat. Si isteri pun mengutuskan seseorang untuk meminta izin dari Rasulullah SAW untuk keluar dari rumah dan menjeguk ayahnya, tetapi baginda berpesan agar si isteri terus menunggu sehingga suaminya pulang. Kemudian si isteri mendapat perkhabaran ayahnya telah meninggal dunia, dan sekali lagi si isteri menyuruh seseorang, meminta izin Baginda untuk pulang ke rumah ayahnya. Jawapan Baginda adalah sama. Si isteri terus menunggu suaminya pulang dengan sabar. Maka berkat ketaatan si isteri, Rasulullah SAW mengutus khabar gembira kepada si isteri bahawa dosa2 ayahnya telah diampunkan Allah.

renungkan kisah itu temanku... yakinlah dengan tindakan mu itu. selagi perintah suamimu itu tidak melanggar hukum syarak islam, janganlah kau ingkari. kuatkan semangat Tina, i pun takkan pernah jemu pray for u. insyaAllah this wont be dragged too long, sabar ye. cahaya Ramadhan pasti ada hikmahnya buat kita.

its ok Tina to putting u in my entry, no one pun visiting my blog.. only u and Kak June pelanggan tetap ye. traffic very low.. so no harm writing something for u to read. this might our transmission cuma bukan software cross connect or physical patching. Tina kan dah RFS, so yakin pada diri sendiri, u no longer fully rely on them. handedover to the operator which is your hubby and its carried live traffic, any problem required ELS to support only u may refer to them. (maafkan nana yang dah semakin bengong sejak ketiadaan Edwin, but to support Eddie is my responsibility, may learn more on management).

i do appreciate u and sis june as my own, and also the rest of my friends.
i told someone that i appreciate her as my own sister, respect her and valued her.
dia jawab dengan ucapan terima kasih and told me that she did nothing to me to be appreciated.
'thanks sgt nana tapi akak tak buat apa2 pun'
and i replied....
akak, untuk kita menghargai seseorang tu kita tak perlu punya sebab. dia berharga buat kita adalah kerana dirinya sendiri, bukan atas apa yang telah dia lakukan samada budi atau perkara yang baik.
tak perlu kan Tina, tak perlu kan Kak June.. kenapa kita perlu menghargai seseorang selepas dia melalukan atau memberikan sesuatu yang berharga buat kita. kehadiran dirinya dan silaturrahim yang terjalin sudah lebih dari cukup untuk dihargai.. silaturrahim ini amanah Allah.

Tina, kita sependapat mungkin kerana kita dibesarkan dalam proses yang tak punya banyak beza dan kita sama2 the eldest, begitu juga dengan Kak June.. kita selalu sehaluan mungkin kerana persamaan kita, kita sama2 anak sulong, sama2 bukan dari keluarga yang senang, sama2 berasal dari kampung, dan sama2 jawa :)
apa yang penting walau kita jauh berbeza tapi kita mampu menjadi sejiwa. hanya dengan memahami dan menghormati kehidupan serta situasi orang lain, insyaAllah. bila kita ikhlas dengan suatu ikatan itu, Allah akan sentiasa merahmatinya..
dari dahulu sampai sekarang, itulah yang sentiasa saya lakukan.. meletakkan diri kita ditempat orang lain, ditempat kawan2 kita sendiri.. itu kaedah mudah untuk lebih memahami..
u guys mean everything to me...
semoga keredhaan Illahi milik kita bersama... Amin..

Something To Think...

Tina dearie...


This is for you, read on...


i know how the pain is but dear u must be strong, for yourself, beloved ones and the baby... 1 think u should remember, family is like this..

i do believe, one day.. the love will be yours forever..

look after u honey. there are peoples needs u still..

Updates on My Bad Day

13th AUG 2009
- hari ni birthday ummi, Selamat Hari Jadi ummi.. Called her this early morning before my day fucked up and mess up my mood.

- on my way to office, was reaching Lim Kok Wing Uni area then suddenly heard one sound quite loud 'kuk!!!' owh, what was that? Damn, got dot on my screen.. Bukan screen pc or laptop ok, but screen view of my car. Batu sesat yang mencacatkan cermin kereta. Quite big but I have to check with dr cermin first before decide to change it with a new one. It will cost about over 1k.

- damn! Eridoc problem… grrrrrrrr

- got meeting to review A no cleanup DT at DiGi by 2pm, ran out of time.. Late to get there. Was heavy rain I couldn’t speed.. Owh, my smart tag out of cash, gotta que in 'tunai' lane.. Wwwwwwwaaaaaaaaa

- parked my car far far away due to parking space fool (instead of full). Thanks a lot to Joo Wei who is sweet mommy to be sent me off to my car on her way home. Also im so happy having Eddie as PM now. Why?? Know him first them u may know he is nice superior..

- then by 4.20pm im safely home.

- got urgent called that I have to be in office for something.. Owh.. But finally, great.. I don’t have to. Thanks to successful and very committed PA, Aleza :)

- Alhamdulillah, finally at night I feel better. Solat berjemaah with my hubby and baca yassin sama2. feels reduced and release…
Joo Wei & Eddie during our yam-cha after MIP meeting

14th AUG 2009
- woke up early morning about 4am, need to go to the toilet.. Then, when I occurred the blood.. Owh, I don’t know why should I feel sad, don’t know why must I regret.. I was the one refused to have it earlier due to our both condition of time spend. But then, this morning by the time ive got my period I was crying…… and I realized, actually im ready to be a mother now. My husband came and talked to me slowly, advised me not to be sad, gave me his comfy hug.. Maybe he heard that I cried in the toilet.

- early morning after he left for work, I just turned on my laptop.. Dropped by few blogs, my husband's latest entry.. Owh, thanks honey. Indeed, I love u too. Tina's latest entry, owh Im so touched. Congrats to u. keep good health of u and baby in your tummy :) .. And read on email received yesterday about arwah ustaz Asri. Ummi called me last night told me that he passed away, yeah I knew it but no time to read the email. My uncle, Ammu Shahril went to his house.. Al-fatihah. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 beriman, insyaAllah.

- got ready for work, was called by ummi when was running my engine told me her Avanza nak kena tukar tayar. fetch sis liza at cyberia condo. Im fake to smile. I really don’t mean it.

- in office, received lot of sms from hubby, tried to tell me its ok, not to worries. Don’t be sad la, blaalabla blaa blaa
Xpelh.. Blm ada rezeki kita lg. Kn mummy selalu ada dgn i. Itu pn dh ckp b'mkna.
Ksh syg i xkn pnh hambar selamanya.
Xpelh syg. Biarlh org nk kata apa. Lgpn kita blm ready kn ini, kita sama2 bz, tggu I dah x bz kita cuba lg. kan kita nk gi brisbane nanti, kita spend time ber2 dulu ok syg.
I nk sgt u jd bidadari i kt akhirat nnt. I Cuma nk u je jd wife I n mummy anak2 i. jgn fikir bkn2 ye syg.
Mummy mamam x td? Rindu sgt2 la ini. Mummy jgnla pk bukan2. Ksh syg n seluruh jiwa raga i hny utk mummy smp bila2.

- I was so busy reading those message while walking to the ladies, and suddenly… why the toilet look so strange, so different… waaaaaaaaaaaaa, accidently dah termasuk toilet lelaki next door. Owh, shit! Someone inside and I said sorry then quickly got out from that room. Ya Allah! Masuk ladies, aku terus tutup muka mencangkung tepi wall. Kak Tini pun tegur what's wrong with me, I told her what has happenned, terbahak2 dia gelakkan i.. And im too.

- yes, the conclusion is.. I will laugh and smile when the time is right.

- now, im ok and better.

- Joo Wei did advised me and calmed me down, Kak Tini and Kak Liza as well cheered me up. Thanks sis.

the point is appreciate as much as we can to our friends and those people around us because we need them everytime even without concerns.....

Have a great weekend everybody.

REVLON - Smokey Eyes

as requested age a go by Tina with regards smokey eyes.

here, lets share a bit on how to....

-senang je la dear, not a big deal. mata u kan dah memang besar :)

recommend u to pick this brand, Revlon-color stay. i used to it for more than 3 years, its good and the most important is your make-up wont be messed.

just apply the black/dark color kat kelopak mata tu, kemaskan dia. it depends u nak dia nampak tebal mana, means whether u nak dia memenuhi kelopak mata u or just sikit2 je..

most of the time i prefer dark color especially black.

and after all, makesure u apply just light draw/line kat bawah tepi mata dengan kemas. u may use an eyeliner or the Revlon itself, guna je small brush dia tu which is provided dalam tu jugak.

thats the secret can make your eyes looks perfect.

means, the shadow akan seimbang. im not that good lah tina, i bukan pandai sangat buat, belasah je. u also can do it dear... :)

ni contoh (entah gambar zaman bila entah)

notes: Tina yang preggy takkan i pulak yang pening2, workstation pun dah penuh asam ni.. :) (assumption ni, kekkeee)

RO for VMS

JB Region
- Last night activity as planned
=Fallback

Yesterday - 10/8/09
- It has been noticed that RC=520
in MVSH1 has been checked on TMR vale 0,3&4
where as the other 4 MiP servers are without TMR values.
- The DT for VMS RO implementation had been varified & confirmed.
Any recent changes in the switch need to have concern from DiGi for
DT modification and implementation.

Tomorrow - 12/8/09
-RO Fallback Post-Mortem Meeting

Naluri Keibuan

Sesungguhnya, naluri keibuanku menjengah lebih hebat setiap hari...